This morning I had a major lesson in how valuable it can be to adjust my mindset. About a month ago, my husband and I learned that our insurance premium was going way up. We also came to realize that I needed a better insurance plan with my diagnosis. Financially, it made sense to switch plans which meant switching companies. Switching to a new network of doctors made me nervous emotionally, but staying with my current team made me nervous financially. I had to weigh the stressors.
The 15th was closing in and after much deliberation, we made our decision to proceed with the new insurance plan. I stayed positive and hopeful that maybe I'd find some new really great doctors.
However, it wasn't until yesterday afternoon that the immensity of my situation hit me like a ton of bricks with the addition of two giant pink elephants. Along with a Primary Care Physician, I need anywhere from 5-7 Specialists on my team. I began my search and calling around. Instead of my doctors all being in one place, I now had to search the greater Denver area and piece together a team. With being so scattered, I fear they won't communicate as necessary? I had to contact my existing doctors to get urgent referrals, have them make phone calls so that the new doctors know the urgency of my situation. After many phone calls, numerous emails, and buckets of tears, I put it down for the evening feeling defeated and hopeless.
This morning when the alarm went off *BOOM* there it was again, the reality of my situation bearing down on me. I decided in the moment that I was going to pay the extra money and stay with my current network of doctors, it was just too much to think about accomplishing otherwise.
And then, like someone dropping in out of the blue or an unexpected package, it hit me...
This is what I asked for. This is what I want(ed). This IS my mission. In the depths of my gut, and in the chambers of my heart, I want to spread awareness to the public and to the medical field around rare Pituitary diseases. Furthermore, as a Gestalt Practitioner I want to support others through life-altering health diagnosis and I will better do this by going through the highs and lows that I face.
This is exactly what I will get to do with all of these new doctors, spread my knowledge and awareness with them. It won't be easy, it may get frustrating, buuuuut, I may save another patient's life, I may be the reason they get diagnosed much earlier!
Once I had this epiphany, I was able to change my entire mindset, and now I can begin to accept the changes and challenges that lie ahead of me.